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Tuesday, 31 May 2011

  • I'm going to be a mommy :D

    I played an April fools joke on Jeremy (my fiance) Saying that I was pregnant.. 6 days later, that joke got me.. I really am pregnant!!!

    I am now 13 weeks. I quit smoking the second I found out (yay me!).

    I finally have some of my energy back and can make it through the day without a nap, but it's hot and humid now, so now I am tired a lot.

    We are getting married June 10th :D at 7pm, at his parents house with just our parents and the judge.

     

     

    So I have a lot ahead of me.. Yay :D

Friday, 25 March 2011

  • L.O.V.E && S.E.X <3

    Okay so things have been bothering me lately. My friends and family and such. How much people throw around the word love. You have been in a relationship for 2 weeks you do not LOVE your bf/gf. I know you can't control how fast you fall for someone but surely after only knowing someone for 2 weeks you can't love them. After two weeks there is still so much more to learn about a person, there is a huge difference between liking someone a lot and loving them. I have done that before used the word love without knowing the true meaning of it. You will not learn the true meaning until you actually love someone, not for things they do, or the way they treat you. I have one friend who is always changing boyfriends and she is always saying she loves every single one of her boyfriends. And sleeps with every guy she dates, now thats fine in my book you at least know the person and are dating them, but to say you love them after a day of dating it gets a bit old. You do not love every single person you date.

    Sex is supposed to mean something, love, not fun, although it is very fun when you love the person, without love its just f*cking. I find it ridiculous that kids are having sex at 13 years old because they think they love every guy they date. I guess this is me being hypocritical because I learned all this through my past experiences. But I really can't stand people throwing the words I LOVE YOU around. After a while of throwing it around it means nothing.. And how guys say it to just get in a girls pants.. If I could change the way I was when I was younger, I wouldn't, I learned from these mistakes and learned that I had no clue what love was, until now, I thank God everyday for my boyfriend, he is my other half <3

     

  • Abortion story && update.

    My close friend told me she found out she was pregnant, and that she didn't know if she was going to keep it or not. Since she told me that I started updating my status's as facts about abortion and such, Facts about how women who do get abortions are more likely to commit suicide, and how after 18 days of conception a babies heartbeat could be heard.. I was telling her how against abortion I am (in privacy of course), She and her boyfriend broke up, he ditched once he found out that there was a chance that she was pregnant. I told her to confide in her mother, and she did. Her mom is completely against abortion too. She decided to keep the baby. Now she has a healthy baby girl who is almost a year old, she cried when she held her for the first time, so full of emotion and couldn't believe she was going to end a precious little girls life. My friend is the happiest I have ever seen her, she loves her little girl, regardless of the fact that she has to do this all on her own, even though she really isn't she has her family and friends. It just goes to show who truly loves you and will be there when you need them.

    *Okay update now*

    I am doing a little better, still stuck..as always, got plans ahead of me, hopefully getting my license this summer, than a car, and such, hoping things fall into place.. My close family friend who has stage 4 cancer has gotten better with treatment, more than anyone expected! Everyone's been praying for her, including herself, and never giving up. Sometimes you wonder why these things happen and you will never know the true answer as to why things like cancer and diseases happen, but all you can do is pray that God takes care of you..never give up faith.

Monday, 07 March 2011

  • 5 years and 6 months since you left us too soon...RIP </3

    Five years ago I lost someone very special to me because he took his life into his own hands, instead of holding his head up high and turning to God for strength to continue living his life. They say time heals all wounds, I have found this to be untrue, it still hurts knowing that he is really gone.. Everytime something happens and I want someone to tell I want to tell him but I can't. He was my best friend, and he didn't realize how special and needed he truely was. He left behind, His 2 younger brothers, his mother, me and all of his friends. He didn't realize he was ending it all for himself but creating a whole new world of pain for everyone around him. He didn't realize how many people truly cared about him. I learned that you need to tell people and show people how much you care for and about them.

     

    *Always missed,Never forgotten*

                       *RIP Nate*

Wednesday, 29 December 2010

  • Christmas

    I'm dealing right now. Just dealing with whatever life throws at me..

    Christmas was alright and for a short time I wasn't depressed...I enjoyed my time with my family and my boyfriends family.. All in all it was really good.. No fights, or anything.  I got a bracelet thats like a pandora bracelet along with one charm ( I used money I got from my aunt to buy another charm for it), and Jeremy got me a ring!! It's a promise ring.. I feel as if we aren't ready to be engaged so I am glad he didn't get me and engagement ring.. Although, I can't picture my life without him in it.. We have talked about getting married later on down the road, We have only been together for 5 months, but in a good way it feels like a lot longer than that..I haven't been getting much sleep recently, I'm hoping that will change because this is killing me, I have such a hard time functioning during the day..

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  • Names Amanda, I'm currently 19,I've made a lot of mistakes in my past, but it all makes me who I am today.

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